this is quite possibly the most overdue blog post of all time, in which i apologize for that.
i am so thankful for those who have asked for an update and especially thankful to those who have faithfully prayed for me since my move to TN 3 months ago.

i've been trying to figure things out.
what 'things'? i don't even know.

community and church and neighborhoods and how you live with people and share bathrooms and decorate and how you get enough money to buy all the things you need for a new home like a Swiffer and toaster oven and guys/dating and communicating and pursuing art and searching for mentors/counselors and trying to remember to eat 3 meals a day and go to bed at a decent time and stay in touch with friends from back home and not seclude myself because this isn't what i pictured and to text back the {literally} 59 unanswered texts in my inbox and get outside enough to breath and arrange my room the right way and, and, and...

do you see how exhausted i am?

mostly, i know Jesus is trying to teach me to rest. to be productive, trusting Him, loving those around me, but not to be worn down. always a martha, never a mary // i want to be in a season of my life that teaches me about what it means to sit at the feet of Jesus.

i've felt pretty overwhelmed since i got to nashville, with a few really incredible moments of rest thrown in the mix. i am expectant for this season, both because quite literally it's Fall in TN and hello! it's beautiful, but also this season of my life as a person. i lost a little motivation in the busyness of moving and settling to pursue wholeness, but now i am re-inspired once again.

so yes, i moved. i have a nashville address. something i wanted and hoped for and prayed for and talked about for so, so long. i am thankful. i am also working 50 hours/week and it's a lot but what i need right now while i continue to get my state boards taken care of for my cosmetology license.

in 4 months i'll have my first nephew and once again my heart will swell and grow and once again i'll be reminded to not take things so intensely all the time. i still spend a part of almost all of my days daydreaming auntie style for the future (and present) of my 3 favorite little humans. i miss them terribly, still pray they grow up to like me and remember me being a part of their lives, and still write them letters on a fairly regular basis.

sometimes i spend my days wondering if i picked the right thing. if i was supposed to come here or not. sometimes i spend my days wondering if i'll ever feel like i belong somewhere or if i'll always move from place to place to place. sometimes i wonder where my husband is and why he's taking so long and how much easier all this would be if someone else was next to me in the process.

tired, tired, tired, but blessed.

thank you for continuing to be a part of my journey and may grace + peace be yours in abundance.