I've never been more aware of my need than I am right now.

I need daily bread. I need housing. I need provision. I need peace. I need understanding. I need community and people to carry my load.

It says in Psalm 34 that the righteous lack nothing. There are so many insane stories of God showing up and providing and making a way. If He can part an entire sea, how much more can He do in my day-to-day?

It's such a crazy time in my life. It's easily the most excited and most scared I've ever been. Please do not think I am brave and please do not think this is easy, because it is not. I've officially crossed over the line of dreaming and believing, to actually doing. This is not an overnight thing. It's a process. A journey. A destination is in sight, but it still takes steps to get there.

It's like in my mind and in my impatience and lack, I decided I'd run a full on marathon. Like, I'm going to get to the end of this as soon as I possibly can. But with each breath, I'm remembering that I didn't prepare for a marathon. I didn't train for it. I cannot turn this process into a marathon when I have not done the necessary things to make it that. In my humanity, I want it all to happen in a day {which things still can change in a day, even an hour}, when the reality is that it's a process.

I'm learning and my eyes are shifting and I'm pressing through.

Making the decision, hourly it seems right now, that I will rise above. I'll rise above everyone who tells me I cannot do this. I will rise above the things my eyes see and choose belief. I'll rise above the odds and the factors that are seeming to go against what I believe to be true. I'll rise above the lack and believe that as a daughter of God I am more than taken care of.  I'll rise above sickness and nerves and headaches and all these little things trying to distract me from keeping my eyes fixed above. I'll rise above the flesh in me that tells me God is not who I know He is. I'll rise above.

If anyone just so happens to know of houses for rent or jobs in Nashville, or if you want to start a Kickstarter or GoFundMe in my name, I'm so fine with receiving any and all gifts, checks in the mail, surprises, blessings, presents, student loans paid off, etc. {Kidding... kind of.}

Thank you for walking this journey with me and for praying for me.

Carry on.